I’m participating in #Reverb13, which is a reflective writing challenge in December to look back over the past year. This will be my third year participating! You can learn more about the Reverb challenges and see the daily prompts here. I participate to share more about myself and to have a written reflection of the year for myself.
Day 11: What challenges lie ahead in 2014? How might you meet them boldly?
2014 will begin with Jarrett leaving for a month to venture to Russia to work the Winter Olympics. It’s hard for me to be separated from him because things seem to go very badly when he’s away (not an exaggeration, I have stories behind this). With all the bad press from this specific Olympic event, I’m also worried for him. He will be gone from Jan 25 – Feb 25. His 24th birthday is January 26 and our anniversary is February 15. We’ll miss both of those together. I hope he will be safe and return home safely from this trip and I also hope my sanity stays in tact while he is gone. I hope to become more independent while he is gone and learn how to not rely on him so much.
We’ll be moving to a different apartment building/different town next year and there are a lot of decisions to come with that. I hope to meet these decisions boldly and decide what is best for our family, my career and our future. I hope I will continue to learn to be happy here and accept that this is where I am, even though I may miss Atlanta and the warmth of the South.
Day 12: I’m a big fan of muddy experiences. They become our greatest teachers when we’re wise enough to exfoliate with them; roll around in the deep until we finally feel ready to get clean. Today, identify something muddy that kept recurring for you throughout 2013, and then ask yourself this: What’s the clear truth underneath this damn mud if I finally wash myself clean?
I don’t even know how to really explain this, but my relationship with a family member is extremely muddy and dirty. I’ve been very angry with this person and their decisions for so long now that is difficult for us to even speak, which we don’t anymore. Family has always been extremely difficult as my extended family members have been pretty horrible, greedy, petty, etc. My brother and I don’t have a relationship with anyone and that really has turned out for the best for our health and sanity after our uncle and grandfather died, who we were extremely close with. I know some kind of forgiveness is in order, but I don’t know if I’m ready for it yet. We’ll see how this develops in 2014. I’m still learning to let things go. My friends are really my family and with whom I am closest.
Day 13: In 2014, how could you explore what community means to you? It might be a question of sharing the load, asking for help or signing on someone with a complementary skill set. Or it could be about a creative collaboration that pushes you to explore new ideas and media. Where might the alchemy be?
I would like to actually be present in my community and meet more people. I really live in two different places: Stamford, CT and New York City. I spend half my time in both places. You’d think that meeting people and making friends in NYC with millions of people wouldn’t be so difficult, but it is. I have a few friends I have made over the past year and one close friend who may be moving here next year, but I would still like to meet more people. I would like to make more friends here. Most of my friends are so far away and in so many different states. I need more people here. How to go about this… that is the real question. We will see! I also need to make sure my strong friendships remain and need to learn to better keep in touch with people. You would also think that with all this technology this would be easier, but it hasn’t been. I need to make that more of a priority for 2014 too.