"Please excuse the mess, we're growing." I heard this phrase on the radio while heading to the train station yesterday morning and it's really stuck with me. It's a commonly used phrase at companies that are under construction in some way. They're improving or changing the way the look and operate. They might even be expanding or fixing a problem.
It hit me because that is exactly the way I feel as a new professional. Please excuse the mess, I'm growing.
I'm expanding, learning, changing, making mistakes, trying to figure out measurements and trying to fix problems I'm facing. I'll never be perfect and I definitely make mistakes, but that's a part of the mess of growing for me right now.
When we make mistakes or do the wrong thing, we have to learn from them. The mistakes cannot continue to eat at us and we have to learn to let things go. I have to learn to let things go. Sometimes I look back on quite a few regrets, but there's nothing I can do about them now. I've changed and I have to keep growing.
It's hard to be a new pro at the bottom of the food chain, I'll say it. It's the unfortunate hierarchy of things in most places and we have to deal with it. It's kind of like the high school mentality of freshman vs. seniors never really ends. I hope one day the cycle does end, so I'll keep holding out for that. I'm sure this thinking will be blamed on me being a millennial somehow... ha.
There may be a way things are supposed to be, but don't be afraid to change things up or really look out for yourself and go after what you want. It's okay for things to change and it's okay to want more. For me, I always want more time with my family. I took that BuzzFeed quiz about "what age are you really" and I got: you're 27.... going on 45. I've really turned into such a homebody. Even my Myers Briggs personality changed from ENFP to ENFJ (which is a big deal and I think ENFJ suits me more).
I'm changing, I'm growing, I'm learning and I'm continually trying to figure out what I want.
So things may get a little messy here and there, but don't give up and never stop growing.